Khloe Kardashian – it’s so sad that you are apparently blaming yourself for the failure of your marriage to Lamar Odom.
You believe that you were “too hard” on Lamar and that you “pushed him away” with tough love, an insider has told HollywoodLife.com EXCLUSIVELY.
Khloe “was crazy in love with Lamar and thinks she failed him because she couldn’t make him allegedly get off drugs,” said the insider. “She thinks she was too hard on him and pushed him away when all she was trying to do was bring him closer when he was at his worst.”
Khloe, you’re the one who’s being tough on yourself. No one could have tried harder than you did to save your marriage and to save Lamar from himself. You carried on for two years, protecting him and covering for him while his behavior became more erratic, you’ve confessed on episodes of Keeping Up with the Kardashians.
You also have said on the show that you felt it was your duty as a wife to protect him. And you did that to such a great extent that you kept your troubles and his troubles secret, even from your family, as well as from Lamar’s basketball associates and managers.
It was only after he was arrested for a DUI that you insisted he move out, in hopes that it would force him to get the help that he needed. Khloe, you needed to try everything to get Lamar back on the right track, and no one can fault you for eventually pulling the plug on your marriage.
Khloe — you made the right decision when you filed for divorce. Lamar is an adult man and he makes his own decisions. If he has allegedly chosen drugs over you, then he’s made a terrible choice, but it’s his own choice. You have no control over it.
Now you need to stop beating yourself up and focus on the great potential of your future. You deserve to have a life partner who cherishes and loves you as much as you do them, and that partner needs to be committed to a healthy life with you and the future family that you want. You deserve this, Khloe.
Hopefully you are talking to a professional about these deep feelings of guilt, as well as sharing them with your closest friends and family.Follow @Infocelebrity on Twitter!
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